Sunday, October 29, 2006

My little sunshine,




Baby Aman went to the doctor yesterday and got his annual injection (jakkes). During the day he got high fever. It was just heartbreaking tohear him cry all day long, Looking at his big eyes and red cones, But his Nana played with him and he cheered up. It just lightend up his pain a little bit. His mom overnighted with him at her mom's place. The whole night Baby had pain and fever and cried. We treid everything to relief him from his pain, massage, vicks etc. So at one moment he fell in sleep. To everybody's relief. Now we could fall in sleep to. I had to wake up early but couldn't fall a sleep, that was a bummer, so i just tried to read. The baby woke up again en started te cry. His nani couldn't get him a sleep again. He just cried his longs out. It was so sad to hear. Than i went to him and picked him up. He tried to cry with tears but he can't cry, so he was so stiff and disordered. My heart just broke by seeing this, i felt his pain. So i just hold him in my arms and wiged him to sleep and talked to him, he calmed down and i felt he reacted on me. I know how he reacts on the gaytrie mantra so i song it for him than he fell in sleep as a happy little baby. I told him that if he is not able te cry so he shouldn't try. He looked so peacefull in his sleep. And than my alarm went off and i had to go hit the showers and go to work. I wanted to stay in bed and just hug him all the time,or be on his side. My little sunshine was still sleeping as an angel.

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Sunday, October 01, 2006

What shall I tell.

The question is: can someone truly love another person. Is that possibe? When can we talk about true love? Yeah I know, the most Enigma and at the same time paradox questions....

Today I had a conversation with my friend from secudaire school. I know her for more than 10 years now. And we both are in our twenties, for the indianculture we're old. For the society we should be married and have at least two childeren.. LOL. So we're expired hahaha can you imagine that.

We both are playing with the question if its possible to love someone so deeply that you can forget yourself. Is it really possible

He is a character, he is smart, funny and different than al those other boys that I know. How often did you hear that :S You can say he is my Mr. Big, I just think and dream about him the whole day, he is my devil, my luxury of sin :sight:
But there is a but. But now I'm just confused, yeah I'm in a state of confusion.

How people can change with every moment in life. The older you get, the more you know that life is not a Bollywood movie or just a love story you read in a good novel. Life itself is a enigma and don't start with love... It's so confusing