Today,
iam really so tiered, I had a take home exam.. You would think it would be easy. NOT so i went to bed at 3.30 AM or something and had to wake up at 7.00 AM so u know i had really no sleep. And now i want to sleep, but don't feel like.
I noticed that since a while that when i don't sleep enough or if iam to tiered my whole emotional household would be dramatic. I just would sit somewhere and feel sorry for myself. how crazy is that.. First i thought it might be my own crazy thing. I couldn't understand it. Because..It wasn't me. .. Thankfull some off my elderly collegeas recognise the same thing emotional drama. So now iam a litlebit relieved. And try to get my routine.. but still sometimes.. pfff... How important is ur daily routine... feeling this bad and emotional.. i can say.... damn important.. So now iam gonna sleep..
maybe there is hope for me.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
What will you do in five years?
Wow that's a big question for me. I used to live day by day. situation by situation. so thinking about a five year plan. wow. The question is what do i want from live that has been given to me as a gift. Why does that same gift sometimes feels as a curse. What do i ask from live. I think i should ask myself what can i give life.
I can be the honest/ loved / kindest/ generous person, that i can be; I can ask for a great job, a loving family a loving and caring husband, but would i get it. how silly is it to ask.. do you know what....Who cares i go for it.. I want a career so i can express myself and be an help for the persons around me. I want to make a different... I want a loving family of my own, I want a caring loving devoted husband/life partner/ soul partner, so shall i be for him... OK Let me see if i can reach it in five years. But first step. i have to trust myself of doing it. That's my higher goal. To life life it fullest. To enjoy it. if there was no tomorrow.
i found this mantra.. on the net... will it really work? hm mm
I Accept, I Thank, I Surrender. In Front of You; You, the Universe; You, the Cosmos; You, the Guiding Hand, G-D. A Living G-D, the G-D of All Existence. You have returned and restored my living essence, my consciousness of this coming day within me, as a consequence of your beneficence, mercy and goodness. Great is your faith in me and I will not let you down. And I will not let my family down. And I will not let my friends down. And I will not let the stranger down. And in that way, I will not let you down. Amen.
“My philosophy is that not only are you responsible for your life, but doing the best at this moment puts you in the best place for the next moment.” Oprah Winfrey
I can be the honest/ loved / kindest/ generous person, that i can be; I can ask for a great job, a loving family a loving and caring husband, but would i get it. how silly is it to ask.. do you know what....Who cares i go for it.. I want a career so i can express myself and be an help for the persons around me. I want to make a different... I want a loving family of my own, I want a caring loving devoted husband/life partner/ soul partner, so shall i be for him... OK Let me see if i can reach it in five years. But first step. i have to trust myself of doing it. That's my higher goal. To life life it fullest. To enjoy it. if there was no tomorrow.
i found this mantra.. on the net... will it really work? hm mm
I Accept, I Thank, I Surrender. In Front of You; You, the Universe; You, the Cosmos; You, the Guiding Hand, G-D. A Living G-D, the G-D of All Existence. You have returned and restored my living essence, my consciousness of this coming day within me, as a consequence of your beneficence, mercy and goodness. Great is your faith in me and I will not let you down. And I will not let my family down. And I will not let my friends down. And I will not let the stranger down. And in that way, I will not let you down. Amen.
“My philosophy is that not only are you responsible for your life, but doing the best at this moment puts you in the best place for the next moment.” Oprah Winfrey
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